Not Cool...
The older I get, the more I realize that I'm not cool. I would like to be cool... but I'm not.
And I never have been (as Randy is quick to remind me).
I think that for a long time, I wasn't OK with not being cool (or with who I was/am). But now, maybe I am (not totally, just more OK).
I have a lot of cool friends, people who have accomplished things, who are hip and with it, who have recognition and notoriety. I used to wish I was more like them (and still do). And I wasn't OK with the fact that I wasn't more like them.
But I think I'm coming to grips with the fact that I am just me. And being comfortable with who I am - with me in my own skin - is really necessary to being emotionally and spiritually healthy and mature.
Sure... I wish I was as hip as Carlos, as talented as Randy, as good a songwriter as Danny, as good at production as the other Randy, as creative as Tyler... you get the idea.
But I'm just me... good at what I'm good at (whatever that is)... as cool as I'll ever be... as talented as I'll ever be... about as good as I'm ever gonna get. But you know what? That's OK. My wife and my boys (and my God) love me for who I am and that's all I really need to worry about.
This completely honest, post-Christmas confession has been brought to you by Two Blonde Boys.
4 Comments:
I wish I was as cool as you, and would admit to uncoolness ;-)
December 26, 2007 5:35 PM
But YOU is what everybody loves about YOU. it's simple Pat.
December 26, 2007 5:51 PM
I so identify with your thoughts here. I always knew I wasn't cool and was okay with that. Then I started to think maybe I was cool--only to realize more recently that I was delusional. But I was reminded by my kids' Go Fish CD this week that "You don't have to play guitar / Or drive a fancy car / God loves you the way you are / To Him you're a superstar." Perhaps a little childish, but still true and comforting!
January 11, 2008 3:31 PM
apparently you have me mistaken for someone who belongs on a cool list - i'm not even cool enough to read a blog in the first 3 months after it's posted.
what really is cool, though, is that the older you get, the less it matters. or the less you care whether it matters or not. or the less likely it is you can communicate a coherent idea, e.g. in a blog comment.
April 08, 2008 2:58 PM
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